{"id":2727,"date":"2025-10-23T04:31:10","date_gmt":"2025-10-23T00:31:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/zirve.info.az\/?p=2727"},"modified":"2025-10-23T04:31:10","modified_gmt":"2025-10-23T00:31:10","slug":"musfiq-borcali-cesaretsizlik-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/zirve.info.az\/?p=2727","title":{"rendered":"M\u00dc\u015eF\u0130Q BOR\u00c7ALI: “C\u018fSAR\u018fTS\u0130ZL\u0130K” (Hekay\u0259) –"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Bu s\u0259rl\u00f6vh\u0259ni d\u00fcz bir h\u0259ft\u0259 gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckd\u0259n sonra se\u00e7m\u0259li oldum\u2026
Ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259nin bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fc, y\u0259ni bazar ert\u0259si idi. Son g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 redaksiyaya daxil olmu\u015f hekay\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7apa layiq olan-lar\u0131 d\u0259rc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m. Bird\u0259n qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc.
\u2013 Buyurun, \u2013 s\u00f6yl\u0259dim.
\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri uca boylu, enli k\u00fcr\u0259k, iyirmi s\u0259kkiz-otuz ya\u015f\u0131nda bir ki\u015fi daxil oldu.
-G\u00fcn ayd\u0131n!
-G\u00fcn ayd\u0131n!<\/b><\/span>
-\u018fd\u0259biyyat \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sinin m\u00fcdiri?..
-B\u0259li, buyurun, \u0259yl\u0259\u015fin. E\u015fidir\u0259m sizi. Ayd\u0131n D\u0259mirli \u2013 dey\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc t\u0259qdim etdim. O, \u0259limi s\u0131x\u0131b m\u0259niml\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturdu.
-\u018frxan Boruslu. \u015e\u0259h\u0259r x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131nda u\u015faq h\u0259kimi i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m \u2013 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.
\u2013 \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l.
\u2013 G\u00f6z\u0259l\u2026 \u2013 Dey\u0259s\u0259n \u00abG\u00f6z\u0259l b\u0259xtin olsun\u00bb, \u2013 dem\u0259k ist\u0259di, la-kin tez d\u00fcz\u0259li\u015f Verdi: \u2013 G\u00f6z\u0259llik siz\u0259 yar olsun, Ayd\u0131n b\u0259y!
M\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131mla minn\u0259tdarl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bildirdim.
\u2013 Bir-iki hekay\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fam. Dedim b\u0259lk\u0259\u2026 h\u0259r halda fikrinizi bilm\u0259k, m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tinizi e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259rdim.
-Borcumuzdur. V\u0259zif\u0259miz d\u0259 el\u0259 bunu t\u0259l\u0259b edir.
\u018frxan b\u0259y \u00abdiplomat\u00bb \u00e7antas\u0131ndan \u00fc\u00e7 hekay\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. M\u0259n hekay\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki qayda \u00fczr\u0259, \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 s\u0259rl\u00f6vh\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r yetirdim: \u00abSevilin Rasif\u0259 k\u0259l\u0259yi\u00bb, \u00ab\u015eahm\u0259rdan v\u0259 Valid\u0259 \u018fb\u00fcd\u0259al\u00bb v\u0259 \u00abC\u0259sar\u0259tsizlik\u00bb. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc s\u0259r-l\u00f6vh\u0259 diqq\u0259timi c\u0259lb etdi. Eyn\u0259yimi tax\u0131b hekay\u0259ni oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m:
\u00abYax\u015f\u0131 yad\u0131mdad\u0131r. M\u0259n orta m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirmi\u015fdim. O ili s\u0259-n\u0259dl\u0259rimi instituta verib, imtahanlardan yax\u015f\u0131 qiym\u0259tl\u0259r alsam da m\u00fcsabiq\u0259d\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Odur ki, k\u0259ndimizd\u0259ki sov-xozda f\u0259hl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdim. Bir g\u00fcn yolum \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Sinif yolda\u015f\u0131m M\u0259hs\u0259tinin\u2026\u00bb
\u00abM\u0259hs\u0259ti!\u00bb Do\u011frusu, bilir\u0259m ham\u0131 \u2013 x\u00fcsusil\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u00e7\u0131lar v\u0259 el\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyatla maraqlananlar, bu ad\u0131 e\u015fitc\u0259k xalq\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6l-m\u0259z s\u0259n\u0259tkar\u0131 M\u0259hs\u0259ti G\u0259nc\u0259vini xat\u0131rlay\u0131rlar. Amma m\u0259n\u2026 M\u0259hs\u0259ti xan\u0131m, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni, ba\u015f \u0259yir\u0259m ehtiramla s\u0259nin ruhun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda. \u018fmin\u0259m ki, s\u0259n m\u0259ni \u00abduyursan\u00bb. Ax\u0131, bel\u0259 anlar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131bsan. Yan\u0131bsan\u2026
G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumdum. Z\u0259hra kimi m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tli, \u00fcr\u0259yi-yum\u015faq, Rabi\u0259 kimi xeyirxah v\u0259 Bilqeys kimi a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 bir q\u0131z \u2013 o uzun sa\u00e7l\u0131, g\u00f6z\u0259l M\u0259hs\u0259ti \u00abg\u0259lib durdu\u00bb g\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259\u2026
Qeyri ixtiyari:
-\u018frxan b\u0259y, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, yersiz d\u0259 olsa, hans\u0131 eld\u0259n, hans\u0131 obadans\u0131n\u0131z?
-Qarayaz\u0131n\u0131n Qarat\u0259p\u0259 obas\u0131ndan.
Az qald\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc itir\u0259m. H\u0259tta \u00abM\u0259hs\u0259tinin yerlisis\u0259n. Nec\u0259-dir M\u0259hs\u0259ti?\u00bb \u2013 dey\u0259 sual verm\u0259k fikrin\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Amma h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259tim\u0259 biruz\u0259 verm\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ald\u0131m. G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi v\u0259r\u0259q\u0259 dikib, oxuma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 davam etdirdim:
\u00abSinif yolda\u015f\u0131m M\u0259hs\u0259tinin universitet\u0259 daxil olmas\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259rini bir az \u0259vv\u0259l e\u015fitmi\u015fdim. \u00abG\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, gedim g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm, sevin\u0259c\u0259k, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir-birimiz\u0259 bac\u0131 qarda\u015f demi\u015fik. H\u0259m d\u0259 universitet h\u0259-yat\u0131 il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olum\u2026\u00bb \u2013 dey\u0259 fikrimd\u0259n ke\u00e7irdim.
M\u0259hs\u0259ti m\u0259ni g\u00f6rc\u0259k sevincini gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilm\u0259di:
-T\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259 bir bax! El\u0259 bu g\u00fcn m\u0259nim ad g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u00fcr.
On s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131m tamam olur.
M\u0259n onu t\u0259brik etm\u0259k ist\u0259dikd\u0259, \u2013 Yoox, \u2013 dedi M\u0259hs\u0259ti. \u2013 Ax\u015fam balaca bir \u00abgec\u0259\u00bb ke\u00e7iririk. S\u0259ni d\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t edir\u0259m. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m ki, g\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n v\u0259 m\u0259ni el\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131nda t\u0259b-rik ed\u0259s\u0259n. M\u0259n d\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259n\u0259r\u0259m, dey\u0259r\u0259m, sinif yolda\u015f\u0131m m\u0259ni unutmay\u0131b, ad g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u0259 yada sal\u0131b, t\u0259brik etm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lib.
\u2026Bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n maraql\u0131, m\u0259nal\u0131, sevinc v\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259h dolu t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259lik ill\u0259ri! H\u0259r bir g\u00fcn\u00fc, h\u0259r bir saat\u0131 \u015firin bir na\u011f\u0131l, \u015f\u0259n bir n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 olan beyn\u0259lmil\u0259l yataqxana h\u0259yat\u0131! Nec\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l-dir!.. Ham\u0131 r\u0259qs edirdi. 87 n\u00f6mr\u0259li\u2026\u00bb
Bizim sabiq yataqxanad\u0131r; M\u0259hs\u0259tinin ad g\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026 \u2013 Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259dim. H\u0259tta \u0259liml\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 da tutdum ki, bird\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq, dilim d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259r.
\u00ab87 n\u00f6mr\u0259li otaq b\u00f6y\u00fck v\u0259 i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 r\u0259qs m\u0259clisin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. Burda m\u0259rm\u0259r d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259l\u0259r, ip\u0259k p\u0259rd\u0259l\u0259r, b\u00fcllur \u00e7il\u00e7\u0131raqlar olmasa da \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n ehtirasla r\u0259qs ed\u0259n g\u0259ncl\u0259rin d\u00f6vr\u0259 vurub f\u0131rlanmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn r\u0259qs salonlar\u0131na m\u0259x-sus geni\u015flik var idi. H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 r\u0259ng\u0259 q\u0259rq olmu\u015fdu.
Do\u011frusu, m\u0259nr\u0259qs etm\u0259yisevm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, bu havadan xo\u015fum g\u0259lirdi. H\u0259tta onu b\u0259z\u0259n dodaqalt\u0131 z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259 edib yams\u0131lay\u0131rd\u0131m da. Bird\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin yan\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015f uca boylu bir q\u0131za sata\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n ala g\u00f6zl\u0259ri oyur-oyur oynay\u0131rd\u0131. Sehrl\u0259di bu bax\u0131\u015flar m\u0259ni. Harada oldu\u011fumu da bel\u0259 unutdum. V\u0259\u2026 g\u00f6zl\u0259-nilm\u0259d\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n ip\u0259k kimi yum\u015faq olan bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn soyuq \u0259z\u0259l\u0259si \u00fcst\u0259 hiss etdim. Bax\u0131\u015flar toqqa\u015fd\u0131\u2026
H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259l\u0259r, m\u0259lah\u0259tli s\u0259sl\u0259r e\u015fidils\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n t\u0259kc\u0259 ona, ham\u0131dan inc\u0259 v\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n q\u0131za bax\u0131rd\u0131m.
\u2013 Q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng q\u0131z, sizi r\u0259qs\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etm\u0259k olarm\u0131?
Q\u0131z d\u00f6n\u00fcb m\u0259n\u0259 baxd\u0131. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi ba\u015fdan aya\u011fa s\u00fczd\u00fc, sonra sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tilsimli bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yell\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k sol \u0259lini m\u0259n\u0259 uzad\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259ydi. M\u0259n onun a\u011f yum\u015faq \u0259lind\u0259n tutdum, ovsunlanm\u0131\u015f bir halda g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131rpmadan r\u0259qs \u00abmeydan\u00e7as\u0131\u00bbna daxil oldum. Q\u0131z x\u00fcsusi \u0259da il\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00e7iyinl\u0259rim\u0259 qoydu. M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z n\u00f6vb\u0259md\u0259 qollar\u0131m\u0131 onun nazik belin\u0259 \u00abdolad\u0131m\u00bb. Q\u0131z nazik paltarda m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131lpaq kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u00ab\u0130lahi, bu naziklikd\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131z olar? El\u0259 bil indic\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k\u2026\u00bb Ehtiyat edib qollar\u0131m\u0131 \u00aba\u00e7d\u0131m\u00bb, \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00abyap\u0131\u015fd\u0131m\u00bb. R\u0259qs\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131q\u2026 \u00c7\u0131lpaq q\u0131z \u00e7iyinl\u0259ri\u2026. Ovuclar\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7i yan\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki na\u011f\u0131llar al\u0259mind\u0259ydim. Haoldan-hala d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm. H\u0259y\u0259candan q\u0131r\u0131q n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131m. N\u0259f\u0259simq\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 toxunaca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxaraq \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc azac\u0131q yana \u00e7evir\u0259r\u0259k sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259trini dodaqlar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dad\u0131rd\u0131m. G\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bel\u0259 Baxa bilmirdim. Qorxurdum ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259-rind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan Alov bird\u0259n \u00f6zl\u0259rimi qarsayar v\u0259 bununla da ona baxmaqdan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik m\u0259hrum olaram. Q\u0131z is\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n analm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 m\u0259ni. M\u0259nim indic\u0259 ona e\u015fq\u0259, sevgiy\u0259 dair n\u0259s\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yimi qabaqcadan duyaraq r\u0259qsin qurtarmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Lakin r\u0259qs n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 uzan\u0131r-uzan\u0131rd\u0131\u2026 M\u0259 nonu r\u0259qs\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etdiyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7ox raz\u0131 idim. V\u0259 r\u0259qs m\u0259clisinin uzanmas\u0131n\u0131 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131m. Amma\u2026
\u00ab- Sizinl\u0259 r\u0259qs ed\u0259rk\u0259n bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r sevinir\u0259m!
El\u0259 bu oldu s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz-s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz. El\u0259 bu qald\u0131 m\u0259nim xati-rimd\u0259. Q\u0131z, q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng q\u0131z. El\u0259 bir q\u0131z ki, qa\u015flar\u0131 kaman, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h-la, yanaqlar\u0131 lal\u0259, dodaqlar\u0131 q\u00f6n\u00e7\u0259, sa\u00e7\u0131 nurip\u0259k, burnu hind f\u0131n-d\u0131\u011f\u0131, sin\u0259si S\u0259m\u0259rq\u0259nd ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131, yeri\u015fi tovuz yeri\u015fi; baxan\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 apar\u0131r. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, el\u0259 bil ki, allah-taala d\u00fcnyada olan g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bu q\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na t\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc\u2026 M\u0259n o q\u0131za \u00e7ox s\u00f6zl\u0259r de-m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. Amma\u2026 Allah, insan\u0131 dild\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r aciz ya-ratm\u0131san v\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, s\u0259n insana hiss-h\u0259y\u0259can vermis\u0259n, bu-nun m\u00fcqabilind\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u0259ryan\u0131n yan\u0131nda damla deyil-mi?.. B\u0259li, m\u0259n o q\u0131z\u0131 itirdim. Ad\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. S\u0259b\u0259bi? \u2013 Susmaq! Utanmaq! Bir k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z dem\u0259yi bacarmamaq! C\u0259sar\u0259t-sizlikdir bu! Sev\u0259n g\u0259ncin, a\u015fiqin \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni olan C\u018fSA-R\u018fTS\u0130ZL\u0130K!..\u00bb
G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi v\u0259r\u0259qd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kib \u018frxan b\u0259y\u0259 bir-iki k\u0259lm\u0259 deyib, s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259k ist\u0259dim. Ancaonun, m\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n oxuyaca\u011f\u0131ndan ehtiyat edib g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi v\u0259r\u0259qd\u0259q ay\u0131rmad\u0131m.
\u2013 Pis deyil, \u2013 dedim: \u2013 \u0130lk q\u0259l\u0259m t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259si olmas\u0131na baxmaya-raq yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259nc\u0259, bunlar haqq\u0131nda da, \u2013 m\u0259n masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn-d\u0259ki dig\u0259r iki hekay\u0259y\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 etdim, \u2013 m\u00fcsb\u0259t r\u0259yl\u0259r s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259li olaca\u011f\u0131q\u2026 Baxar\u0131q, h\u0259r halda redaksiya il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259 saxlaman\u0131z\u0131 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t bilirik\u2026
\u018frxay b\u0259y \u00abSa\u011f olun\u00bb deyib qalxanda, \u00abM\u0259hs\u0259tini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n salam s\u00f6yl\u0259yin\u00bb g\u0259ldi dilimin ucuna. Amma dodaqlar\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7ammad\u0131m. \u018frxan b\u0259y\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259dim ki, s\u0259nin a\u015fiq oldu\u011fun g\u00f6z\u0259l haz\u0131rda bizim redaksiyada i\u015fl\u0259yir, ad\u0131 M\u0259ry\u0259mdir, m\u0259hs\u0259ti t\u00fcrk\u00fcd\u00fcr. Dey\u0259s\u0259n o \u00abc\u0259sar\u0259tsiz\u00bb d\u0259 \u00abs\u0259ni\u00bb g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. Hekay\u0259d\u0259ki bu s\u00f6zl\u0259r g\u0259lib durdu g\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259: \u00abM\u0259n o q\u0131z\u0131 itirdim. Ad\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 bilm\u0259dim.\u00bb Fikrimd\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m. \u018frxan b\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259k ist\u0259dim:
\u00abS\u0259n bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcb v\u0259 itiribs\u0259n. M\u0259n yaz\u0131q be\u015f il bir qrupda t\u0259hsil alm\u0131\u015fam, be\u015f il bir yataqxanada, bir binada, h\u0259tta bir m\u0259r-t\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 \u2013 be\u015finci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam. N\u0259 fayda? O, 87-ci otaq-da, m\u0259n 90-c\u0131 otaqda olurdum. \u00abAram\u0131zda\u00bb ikic\u0259 otaq vard\u0131\u2026 N\u0259 fayda? K\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7a bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Be\u015f il \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259, son ayr\u0131l\u0131q g\u00fcn\u00fc is\u0259 dili il\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 yar\u0131ciddi-yar\u0131zarafat \u00abC\u0259sar\u0259tsiz ya-z\u0131q\u00bb dey\u0259n M\u0259hs\u0259ti d\u00f6rd il m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259di. Faydas\u0131?.. Alt\u0131 bac\u0131n\u0131n ilkiydi M\u0259hs\u0259ti. Be\u015f bac\u0131 yolu k\u0259smi\u015fdi M\u0259hs\u0259ti. A\u00e7mal\u0131yd\u0131 o yolu\u2026 D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc kursun sonuna yax\u0131n \u00abni\u015fanland\u0131\u00bb\u2026 A\u00e7ar\u0131 da 1945-ci ilin 6 avqustunda Xirosima \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259 vay\u015f\u00fcyan zaman\u0131 it-bata d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc\u2026 G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, \u018frxan qarda\u015f, \u0259sil c\u0259sar\u0259tsizlik m\u0259nim c\u0259sar\u0259tsizliyimdi. \u018fn c\u0259sar\u0259tsiz d\u0259 el\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259m \u2013 Ayd\u0131n D\u0259mirli!..\u00bb Amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ald\u0131m: \u00abQoy t\u0259s\u0259l-lim qals\u0131n sonraya\u2026\u00bb N\u0259 is\u0259\u2026 S\u0259b\u0259bi? C\u0259sar\u0259tsizlik! M\u0259nim c\u0259sar\u0259tsizliyimin s\u0259b\u0259bi is\u0259 \u2013 o, m\u0259nd\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l idi, o, m\u0259nd\u0259n savadl\u0131 idi. (Universiteti bitirdikd\u0259n sonra m\u0259ni \u00abBor\u00e7al\u0131\u00bb q\u0259ze-tin\u0259 m\u00fcxbir, onu is\u0259 Qarayaz\u0131 rayon q\u0259zetin\u0259 redaktor m\u00fcavini t\u0259yin etdil\u0259r. \u0130ndii o redaktordur, m\u0259n \u015f\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdiri.) N\u0259 is\u0259\u2026
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Bu s\u0259rl\u00f6vh\u0259ni d\u00fcz bir h\u0259ft\u0259 gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n sonra se\u00e7m\u0259li oldum. \u00abHadis\u0259\u00bb d\u00fcz bir h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l, y\u0259ni ke\u00e7\u0259n bazar ert\u0259si ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi. Bu g\u00fcn \u018frxan Boluslu, q\u0259zetimizd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ilk iki hekay\u0259sini oxuyacaq. \u00abB\u0259s, m\u00fcdirin \u00abyax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r\u00bb s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi \u00abC\u0259sar\u0259tsizlik\u00bb?, dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259k\u2026 G\u00fcnl\u0259r \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k. V\u0259 bir g\u00fcn\u2026 \u018frxan b\u0259y q\u0259zeti g\u00f6z\u0259d\u0259n ke\u00e7ir\u0259rk\u0259n \u00abC\u0259sar\u0259tsizlik\u00bb adl\u0131 s\u0259rl\u00f6vh\u0259y\u0259 rast g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, sevin\u0259c\u0259k, ham\u0131 kimi o da hekay\u0259ni oxumam\u0131\u015f imzaya baxacaq. Baxacaq ki, imza onun imzas\u0131 deyil. \u0130mza yerind\u0259 yaz\u0131l\u0131b:
\u00abC\u0259sar\u0259tsiz Yaz\u0131q, Tiflis, 5.02.1990\u00bb\u2026
Darvaz, 1990.<\/i><\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

M\u00dc\u015eF\u0130Q BOR\u00c7ALI<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

\u00abMilli Qurtulu\u015f\u00bb q\u0259zeti,
3 avqust, 1993.<\/i><\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

ZiM.Az<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

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Mu\u0259llif huquqlar\u0131 qorunur.<\/p>\n

M\u0259lumatdan istifad\u0259 etdikd\u0259 istinad mutl\u0259qdir.<\/p>\n